It’s been a long time since I’ve written here but I’m going to try and start again- skating means so much to me.
Since I last documented my misadventures with adult figure skating a lot has happened.
- I passed my Silver Freeskate test via a gift from the universe. I freaked out so much that I fell on a single loop in the warm up. After the test was over another adult skater advised me that Fireball was a good anti-anxiety supplement. I have yet to try this since I practice at 5 am and last time I checked drinking hard liquor that early in the morning is sort of frowned upon.
- I sprained my ankle doing an off ice axel and couldn’t skate for a month. Two years later I sprained the same ankle doing an off ice axel (Off Ice Axel: 2, Erin: 0). Thankfully the second only resulted in a week off. I think I learned my lesson.
- For a positive- I landed my axel. It’s still a spinny adult axel but it gets around and is fairly consistent so I am trying to be less self deprecating about it.
- I changed coaches. Changing coaches in figure skating is like getting a divorce. It was really difficult to do but was for the best.
- I took my Gold Moves and got a retry- for the record if you put your foot down on a bracket you are going to fail.
- I learned an illusion spin entry which has since become my favorite spin. The camel spin and I are still in counseling.
- I went to Pacific Coast Adult Sectionals for the first time, fell on a spin and managed to get 19th place. Out of 19. It felt about as good at the time as it sounds.
- Exhibit A: The best part of the entire day was when after my disaster skate one of the skaters in my group (who was on the podium) came up to me after the event. She was really nice and encouraging. Additionally, my older brother had come to the event to watch since he was in LA at the time. At the end of our brief conversation she said something along the lines of “And hey- who’s that hot guy you are with?” To which I replied “That’s my brother.” Apparently the competition was checking my brother out and wondering what he was doing at an adult figure skating competition.
- What makes that story so funny is that I have listened to people (friends, acquaintances, random strangers, ect.) talk about how good looking they think my brother is my entire life. I thought I was safe at a figure skating competition. The universe thought not.
- Even though I did not have the skate I wanted in the Championship event I had a really good time. Watching and cheering for other adult skaters was so much fun. Most of all it was fun to see other adults who love skating as much as I do.
As harsh a critic I can be about my own skating- I have improved a lot in the past year. My goal this year at sectionals is to be happy with how I skated. I can’t control anything else- I just want to be happy with my performance and not disappointed with myself like last year. I have been trying a lot of mental strategies to help with nerves but I think more than anything is just remembering that even if I skate poorly- that doesn’t mean I am a bad skater. It doesn’t say anything about me. As a perfectionist and self deprecating person that is hard for me to remember to do. This year my coach and another adult skating friend are both going which I think will help a lot. Either way, I’m sure there will be stories to tell when I get home.